I find that it's all too easy to be hard on myself. To look at what I feel are shortcomings. To see where things aren't going the way I think they should and to assign all sorts of self-blame.
My inner critic is a bit of a crankypants, and I really feel like sometimes that's the only voice I hear.
Do you ever feel like that?
I think it's all too common.
Opening a brick and mortar business is filled with thousands of opportunities to question my self, to wonder if I'm good enough, if I can really do this. And I think that is all normal. But it certainly is unpleasant.
The reality is that I am forging new territory.
Yoga studios have been around for ages. But Body Positivity Yoga is different. It's first and foremost a safe space for all bodies. Yoga is the practice - but the reason, is to make people feel good about themselves - to realize they are worthy of their own attention. Worthy period.
In some ways, it's a Yoga studio. But in other ways, and at it's heart - it's a "feel good about you" studio. And the more I remember that and move it in that direction, the more I realize that having some non-Yoga offerings that speak to the importance of self-love, self-care and a positive body image is going to be an important part of what happens next. And I'm so excited and so passionate about doing that.
But then my inner critic climbs onto my shoulder and says (shouts) "who are you kidding?? Who do you think you are?" And it's super hard not to listen to that voice. As a new business, it's not uncommon for our classes to be very small - which is great for our clients who get tons of one on one attention - but for me, and maybe some of our teachers - it's an opportunity for that little voice of self-doubt to creep up.
And so, today, my mantra is - it's okay. I'm going to make mistakes. Things are going to feel scary. But It's okay. And maybe most importantly -- I can do this.